INSANE

My Hey Baby video has taken off and exploded into insane proportions. I can't even begin to describe it. It's overwhelming, if I can be honest. It's great and fantastic, but I don't know how to take all these "Pedo smile" comments. I know most of them mean well, and they're using that term without any malice or any reference to real pedophilia, but it still makes me uncomfortable. I think pedophilia is one of the most heinous, most despicable and horrible things one human being can do to another. For it to be used in reference, however affectionately, to what is by all means a completely innocent video, is incomprehensible to me. People who aren't into this kind of culture will most likely misconstrue the comment and reflect very poorly on me. It's got the potential to be very damaging.

Nevertheless, I also do get comments that I make happy videos that make people smile, and that's what I appreciate the most. Because in a way, that's one of the reasons why I do them in the first place. First of all, creating videos on You Tube is my de-stresser from work. You have no idea how liberating and exhilarating to cast off my normal restrictions on decorum and just go ape. I feel completely free. And when all that's done, I retreat again to my drawing table and disappear into my own thoughts and problems until I make another video. But to get feedback that my videos make people smile and it's their de-stresser from their own problems is an added bonus. That feels great.